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I finally got to meet Benjamin...he so cute! He looks just like his mother. He has big hands, long toes and really black hair. He is just a dream! Can't wait a few months to see him more active.


 I was also able to get some more workout clothes, I got two pairs of pants, for about $35 for both. I need to get a sweat band, I have enough sports bras, and I also need to get some new workout shoes.

:-)

The Lord is good to my bones :-))). He heals me of all my fears.

Yoga/pilates 1 hour; today shoulder, triceps, biceps :-D

Yesterday, I did the yoga/pilates class usually on Tuesday. It was a workout- I was sweating like a little pig! lol


Today I did some weight lifting on my own with some free weights, I up'd the weight and then my left arm starting hurting, so I went back down on the weight...maybe I'm still sore from yesterday's push up.

I hate not keeping tabs with how much I'm eating!

Today I totally skipped breakfast...somehow I wasn't hungry at all....and then I had some candy mid-morning. I ate lunch (tacos) they are sooo good and puffy cheetos...I sure did feel like I cheated! Blah....anyway and then I didn't eat a snack. I went and did my workout and when I got home from that I ate some special k strawberry cereal with 1 carb almond milk!!!! It's the bomb.

Anyway, I'm not feeling hungry or deprived. So I'm wondering what I should do, I have to wake-up a bit earlier...I haven't been eating enough breakfast...whatsoever!

I know before when I was apart of that program in college they suggested I eat 1835 calories per day for me to function normally....that was just me sitting still all day....and Oh did I lose a lot of weight! Eating more and not exercising>>>go figure.

Now, I've working out pretty consistently, some cardio some days, strength training every day.

I have to keep adding the pieces, and not quit. It really honestly hasn't been that difficult. Praise the Lord he has given me so much grace to just get it done and move forward; especially when everything else is not in order. But, oh yes!, it is because:


The steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord. Psalm 37:23


I will choose to speak the word of the Lord, that is the truth.

Aerobics and strength training

1 hour ...it was a good monday night workout!!!

UPDATED - Berry Protein Shake

I decided to add some banana to my smoothie....it tastes even better!

3/4 cup Healthy Select apples juice (sold at Kroger) 5 cars (per 8 oz serving).
one scoop whey protein
1/2 cup frozen berry medley (Equate - Wal Mart)
1/2 small frozen banana

I put in half of the other ingredients minus the whey protein scoop, if you want it thicker just put half a cup of the apple juice.

Lower body workout

I worked out today. Just my lower body. I'll try and lift heavier weights next time. My legs do feel like mush. I noticed that the gym was pretty busy for a Sunday, but I'm glad I went. I used the aerobics room and no one was in there. I was done within 30 minutes and back at the house.

1 hour yesterday... and today...

yesterday shoulders....today cardio with strength training.

1 hour

I went and did a pilaties/yoga class today. It was really nice and relaxing, except my wrist starting acting up again. I declare it is healed and perfected in the name of Jesus. He did die on the cross for all sickness and diseases.

It felt good to stretch. I need to put things together and make sure I am working out and eating healthier and less to make sure I lose as much weight as possible. I still haven't weighed myself again.

I like those commercials that say, sweat everyday! I wonder who puts those up? Ok, Under Armour does, but I'm not sure I'm using their deodorant though...but I do like that it inspires me a little.

I like sweating every day. It makes me feel good and light and accomplished.

Lord, I know you will remove every moment, that was not meant to happen, outside of you. Their effect will lose it's potency in my heart and soul. Only your truth will stand out and saturate my heart, mind and soul.

1 hour

Of strength training and cardio....I almost threw up. I had an awesome dinner though :-)




broiled tilapia
broccoli
potatoes

cup fo strawberries and crema....the bomb!

Day 1

I started my running plan today....it started to pour down! So, I did stop at the fourth set of 8 minute intervals of walking and running...tomorrow? This is only day one!

20

Intense minutes elliptical.

God is so good :-)

All the time no matter the season.

Learn To Love- NeedToBreathe (with lyrics)

Real love

The Lord displays true love at the cross that even at our worst he died a slow painful death because he loved us. He didn't care what others said to him about us or the price he had to pay. He wanted to to display the perfect love that casts out all fear and gives life more abundantly. Setting a standard that we should never forget or betray by actions that are not worthy to his name.

Weight Loss

During my workout yesterday, I really wanted to lift weights. I really wanted to lift weights but then it's like everyone else read my mind and headed over to the weights area :-(

Today, I went to the gym again after work. I ran into someone whom I'd gone to high school with and we just kinda started talking. Nonchalantly we talked about what we'd been up to. He said he had been working out for about two years now. I told him how I had issues going over to the weight section because all these guys just came pouring in. He said, ya know what don't pay attention to them. They are there with one goal in mind and that's it. I shrugged my shoulders, agreeing. He then said if you want I am working legs today, do you want to workout with me? So, I quickly surveyed the area and a lot of people were gone.

We talked a bit and he just went through the motions reminding me how to do it and I did the same while he rested for his next rep and we switched out and it was perfect! Thank you Jesus! I then ran into my cousin who just got out of jail, he is so sweet, it sucks when the enemy takes a hold of you life and you can't seem to get out of the loop of his deadly roller coaster.

Anyway, back to what happened we had fun, my legs feel like mush...but it was worth it. I'm getting back on track. My personal trainer Eli, says I should be in shape in no time. He estimates two months...lol. Thanks Jesus for my answered prayers, I'm not sure what else you'll be doing in the meanwhile but let it be your will, help me to be a blessing to him and his family, as he is being to me.

I also had my first ever protein smoothie.

I dreaded not knowing if it would be gross or not.

This is what I put in it:

1 cup of healthy choice apple juice (sold in Kroger)
1 cup of frozen medley berries (equate - Walmart)
1 scoop of vanilla protein powder ( i purchased as Wal-Mart)

Let me say, I was very much delighted with the taste! O M G!! I never thought a protein shake would be so good. Somehow, I did wish it tasted like chocolate. I'm sure that would be weird. Anyway, I'll be buying a chocolate flavor next time. I need some vitamins as well.

Gone.

I have been thinking about chopping my hair off...but wasn't really sure. Since I just broke out of a relationship, I decided to go for something new and bold. I have a friend who is about to finish her cosmetology training program and asked her if she would so graciously cut it for me.

Delighted, she agreed.

I cut off about 7 to 9 inches of my hair. It was time. I missed it for two seconds...the emotional attachment has yet to wear off.  I like it. It different, edgier...at the same time still me.

I was thinking about something Joyce Meyer had mentioned during one of her teachings I was listening to the other day. She talked about how she loved what she did for the Lord teaching the word of God on a daily basis. She mentioned something about, really knowing our identity and not tying ourselves to any one thing...to where it completely defined us.

I thought about this and pondered, why yes, we should have a good foundation in the Lord that no matter what we did before, are doing and maybe later won't, that any particular anything wouldn't cause an identity crisis.

Me cutting my hair did set this off. I waved my hair back and forth and it's gone...all excess 7 to 9 inches of it! Wow...the last time I cut my hair this short, was back in November of 2008.  That was four years ago. I had received the occasional trim, but I never had cut that much length off, in one swift move.

I thought about Samson, and how his hair was his glory. How in my Mexican culture men find women with long luscious hair more attractive. My ex loved my long hair. I almost chickened out.

I still did it.

Now I have less hair and even though I really, really enjoy it long. It doesn't define who I am. It was quite crazy actually when she was cutting my hair I felt like I was on the steep dip down on a really high roller coaster, I had to hold my stomach. Even now writing this I want to cry.

My hair is still curly, a little less lioness even. But, it's done, it will grow back. I needed a change.
Blah, I didn't realize how attached I was to something that is dead. Lol.

Ok Amanda, it's gone you can't put it back, it doesn't in any way, shape or form change who you are. Hopefully, I didn't hurt the Lord's feelings by doing it.


All of the sudden, I have the urge to express myself creatively, physically....do stuff that I haven't done and have longed to do. I have nothing holding me back. Lord help me find my way. Help me find what it is I should focus on at this moment. I need you father, I love you.

Omi

I love this Korean barbeque grill. Its pretty awesome and straight forward with pricing and dishes. The food is great and I love the Korean culture all around.